Monday, 06 September 2010

  • What was your major in college? Do you wish you could have studied something else?

    I'm still in college, I'm on my third year as an undergraduate.  For the first year, I was a Music Performance Major.  I couldn't handle the workload.  It wasn't that I wasn't good at what I was doing, I was actually one of the more advanced freshmen at the time.  It was just very time consuming.  I found myself having to be in class by 8am, and not being able to leave campus until around 10pm.  Couldn't get a job, couldn't have a life.  I began to hate music!  I love music very much, and performing is a passion for me, but this was killing it.  It was my queue to switch majors.  The start of my second year, I was an English Major, interested in Creative Writing.  Throughout the semester, I decided I really didn't want much of a career with English, unless it was teaching or something.  I just wasn't very enthusiastic about the major at that point.  So the second semester of my second year, I decided to go into Psychology, and here I am now!  I'm very happy where I am now, there's always something interesting and new to be learned, and it can all be applied to yourself and the people surrounding you!

    Even though it took me two changes of my major, I'm glad I did it.  I think it's important to test the waters before diving in.  You need to know whether or not you will be satisfied in a certain career field, once you're finished with your higher education...otherwise it's both time and money wasted!

       

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  • I hate those dreams...

    that you get every now and then, about people you really shouldn't be dreaming about.  I end up waking with a smile on my face, then later realize it's not real, and not right of me to think about things that way.  I don't really feel ashamed about it, but still feel guilty...if that makes any sense.  As much as I try to move further away from something I want and can't have, my subconscious continues to make this impossible...

Thursday, 02 September 2010

  • Update on ME!

    Haven't been on here for a while.  Mainly because I got bored of reading the same drama on here, and I didn't feel it was worth my time, it was just more annoying than anything.  Hopefully I can find the time to start writing on here again.  Here's a little update as to what I've been up to:

    The school semester started a couple weeks ago.  I'm a junior now, but very much behind in my Psychology major.  About a year and a half behind.  My first year, I was a Music major, then I decided I wasn't much of a fan of not having a life.  Being a music minor was enough for me.  The beginning of my sophomore year, I was an English major, but the only thing I really liked about that was Creative Writing.  I didn't really feel the need to major in English though, I figured I can write all on my own, and I wasn't really looking to make a living of that.  Anyway, I was planning on taking four major classes to catch up, but I was only able to get into two of those.  The budget cuts have made the entire CSU system cut classes, further limit units per semester, and raise tuition fees, so I wasn't too happy about that.  I'm only in classes three days a week, and not able to get a job (if I want to keep riding along the coattails of Financial Aid).  Lots of free time on my hands.  But on a positive note, I'm hoping it will keep my stress levels down!

    My band has gotten the ball rolling again.  We've been planning our big comeback show, and it's scheduled for early October.  Not much I can say about that, except I'm excited to start playing frequently again.  My other band isn't doing much.  The singer/guitarist lives three hours away and won't be coming down very frequently from now on, mainly because he doesn't see much effort coming from the other two band members.  I think he might as well just leave the band.  I don't really care though, I'd be lying if I said I was very confident in the band anyway.  For me, it was more of a fun side project thing I did while my other priority band was on hold.  So, I guess we'll see what happens with that.

    I'm still keeping up with P90X.  I actually just finished my day's workout.  I'm exactly halfway at DAY 45.  Haven't seen any dramatic results yet, but my muscles are obviously a little more toned, and my stomach has also went down.  My eating habits have changed a lot, even though I cheat from time to time, but it isn't anything I'm really struggling through, which makes me happy and keeps me confident.  I'm just hoping by the end of this, I reach my goal, or as close to it as possible.

    My girlfriend and I are good.  We still have our stupid fights about nothing, but we've managed to get over it each time.  This is her first semester in college with me, unfortunately (or fortunately?  lol) we don't have classes around the same times, so we don't see each other there much.  It's definitely been hard though, as she's a very attractive girl, and gets much attention from the guys.  Two weeks have gone by and there have been four guys who have very publicly come onto her.  One even did so while I was present.  I have a feeling I'm going to have to kick someone's ass pretty soon  :)

    "T" is sort of out of the picture.  Her boyfriend got back from out of state a few weeks ago, so that should explain it perfectly.  We still talk, just not very often.  We never see each other though.  I did run into her the other day at a local fundraiser thing at my old high school.  I invited her to a party I wanted to go to that night (like a home wrecker would  :P  ), but she never got back to me, and ended up going to dinner with her boyfriend...which is good!  Lol it's nice to know that at least HER head is in the right place...

    I have another friend, we'll call her "L".  I guess you can call her an "old flame" too.  I've been talking to her a lot recently.  Not because I'm trying to get at her or anything, we just started texting again the other day.  She asked me to dinner with her today, but we had to postpone until next week.  Don't think the girlfriend will be too thrilled, but she doesn't have to know.  It's not like it's that sort of thing, anyway.  Catching up with old friends is nice.  My girlfriend does it, so I figure I can too.

    Oh, and I've been watching a lot of the show "Mad Men".  It's basically my favorite show at the moment  :)

Tuesday, 20 July 2010

  • feeling;

    **  I wrote the other day, for the first time in a long time.  It's been almost a year since I was writing consistently.  It was back when I was an English major and had gotten interested in creative writing.  Ever since I switched to psychology, I began playing catch-up with my degree road map.  I was squeezing in as many units as I could as an effort to get back on track.  So, I didn't have room at all for any elective type classes, and didn't have much time to write for myself.

    Anyway, enough of me talking...  It's been a while, so I hope those of you who actually read it aren't too critical.  We'll...I don't care, I suppose it'd only help further my writing.

     

    feeling;

    the customary, the temporary
    texture, weight, atmosphere;
    the surfaced consistency
    bleaches and fades clean;
    sterilized and scrubbed, as
    vitality and substance stray;
    leaving you alone.

     

  • P90X: Day 1

    A few weeks ago, I got tired to being out of shape and was looking for a challenge.  So, I decided to check out the P90X program.  A few friends and family members of mine have tried it and say it definitely works if you can stick with it...and I figured I might as well give it a shot.  I got my equipment in the mail yesterday and went grocery shopping for all kinds of healthier foods, since dieting is a must when doing this thing.

    Today was my first day, and needless to say, it was pretty intense.  I did alright, but it's definitely not as easy as it looks.  I'm still confident!  I'd say the hardest thing for me today was the push-up exercises and the abdominal workout.  I've always had wrist problems, so push-ups have never been my thing.  Plus, I'm not fit when it comes to my midsection.  So the push-ups were even harder because of that, and obviously the "Ab Ripper X" wasn't really a walk in the park.  I could barely do half the reps the demonstrators were doing on the video.  Hopefully if I stick to it, and keep pushing myself day to day, I can reach my goals.  The main thing I'm aiming to do is to get better eating and exercise habits, and to get rid of my stomach!

    My body is so oddly proportioned, and has been since I've gone through puberty lol.  I have more testosterone than I should, so I bulk up easily.  But when it comes to cardio, it's tough.  My shoulders and arms are pretty good, my thighs and calves are pretty muscular as well.  But my midsection is what kills me!  I don't really exercise regularly, although I began to last semester.  I stopped once summer vacation came around, because I don't have the money to drive to campus and back day to day.  When it comes to my diet, or lack of, it doesn't help much either.  I don't eat very many meals a day, usually just a good portioned lunch and dinner (sometimes just dinner, depending if I'm hungry or not in the afternoon).  The nutrition plan requires me to eat 5 times a day, and even though the portions are considered "small," they're just as much (maybe be ever more!) than I eat with my usual one or two meals!  I'm hoping my stomach adjusts quickly, because it has got me feeling sick and overstuffed.

    In the end, I'm excited to see how my body, as well as my mentality, will change.  I hope to look and feel better about myself, because self-esteem is what matters the most!